You may or may not be aware that on Sundays i am involved with a local youth film company called offshoot films

heres a link to the site http://web.mac.com/paulpress
Podcast 4
there are weekly podcasts couple of which involve me i so don't look good on camera
i am the one with short red hair and is either wearing a black jumper or a black coat in podcast four i am wearing a hat. i am seen using a clapper board in 3 and holding a white disc in the other, it is a light disc.
also for those who know of my sister ooziebub, in podcast 4 shes the one wearing the glasses and sarcasticaly says she's frightened.

also i got an offer from winchester, woo

kat signing out bye

Okay school was alright today, got some work down, however when i get in the car, mum tells me someone has called today
my first thought is fat face i have a got the job. 
but no it was bloody f***ing SCUTCHERS then wanted me to work tonight, and what my wondeful mother did was say yes 
cheers NOT!!!!! what ever went through your mind when saying yes i don't know... and our previous concosations about how much i hate that s***hole didn't think that maybe i'm trying to get out of it all together as soon as i get a new job.
i don't care whether its a good payed job for me when i come home  from uni i don't F***ING WANT IT. i would almost not come back at all if i didn't have friends who actaully listern to me and would help me.

you say that went i get upset and angry and that b****face of a sister thinks i'm over reacting ( which so patronising i would consider joining that bridge end lot) that you don't know what to do and think by leaving me when i clearly need some help e.g carring an A2 art book, plus 3 history text books and a large folder. are you that thick not think i need help. or do i need to spelt it out to you in a really nice way that I NEED SOME HELP HERE 
god why does family have to make feel so sh**.

I'm sorry guys ranting like this i hate it to but i feel LJ is kinda place where i can type it out of me so i don't take it to work and then get fired. 
(Getting fired sounds like a good idea but then i bet my family would treat me even more like sh** and also i'm too much of a goody goody  i wonder whose fault that would be.)
Also i need to make sense of what in my head so i'm not saying jibberish when i see the councilor tommorrow, yeah thats how screw up iam, and what the stange thing is that after my form tutor actually took the momment to talk to me realise this. however after numerous talks with mum her feeling...oh it probably not that serious that you need help.  well it must be if i'm considering suicide.

DON'T WORRY I'M PASSED THAT i don't think i can't do it i know how many people it would hurt and i can't do it to them and my friends here and at school give me positive things to think about ... and Jensen Ackles. 

anyway happy thoughts Kat now, OMG what i large post and this is only your second eek.
had interview at WINCHESTER UNIVERSITY it was alright but the amount of hills and walking from campus to the block where i would be studying ouch so i'm not sure yet i still have to look and the one in Wales and southampton and they look nicer. and honerstly i don't care about the sheep in wales, as long as i get away from this place.

Got to go now to the hell hole called work.
bye bye 
Kat
 

Right  i think i'm getting the hang of this

Hi i'm Kat, i'm new to this LJ stuff, so  i hope i'm doing this right. I love the show Supernatural, and i f you haven't already you should watch it.
I'm currently preparing for university, where i'm going not sure yet. I thought i should have an LJ account, cause its seams such a great place for meeting people and i have grown out of bebo and i hardly ever use my space.

See ya round  
Kat